Having a Moment
Every now and then emotions will grab me when I don’t see them coming and often the kids cause it. They have no idea that they do it to me either or at this stage I think they would go plotting and make it happen! Well today was one of those moments while I was home alone with Dija for a little while. In the kitchen making supper like normal people do. Out of the blue she starts singing. Ok for her it’s not so out of the blue but it my head it was the blue area. As if she knew the song, “How Great is our God, Sing with me, How great is our God” then she quickly explained so matter of fact-ly, “I’ve just been singing that song all day, and I don’t even know all the words!” Of course that was a sign for me to get that song turned on so she can learn the rest and now she knows more and is singing away in the bathtub.
I, on the other hand, have been having my teary moments alone in the kitchen as I hear her singing it. You see when you know she is a walking miracle you can’t help but be thankful for her little life, her lungs that are able to sing and yes even make the noise she makes (lots). The vivid memory of the ambulance whaling down the road in front of us while we waited to hear if she would survive… My cries to God to save our baby in that moment… The frail little body laying lifeless in the emergency room…life-flight team taking her away… Her song brought it all back like a flood. I believe God saved her little life and I believe she knows it. There is no other explanation. To read the medical reports and hear personally from staff on duty that night it is clear that her survival is nothing short of a miracle.
So today she reminded me. Thanks Miss Dija for the nice reminder. Thanks God for Miss Dija… Oh, and for making us women so emotional that we get to have these lovely moments. Look out, she’s learning the rest of the song!
“Let’s be happy all the time – you and me, ok?” ~Dija, 5.
I know it’s been a while since I have posted anything. It’s just because we are having a fun summer!