Let’s Play Ball!!!!
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Oh god, I did it….I played baseball Friday night. I had gotten the call earlier in the day that I may need to play due to not having enough girls to field a team. I didn’t panic…oh crap I can’t lie…I panicked and called a few people to see if they wanted to play..no luck! I was playing.
Now I love sports and I do quite enjoy playing baseball; however, I HATE running. I mean take hate and times it by about one million and sprinkle hell fire on top of that and it might come close to how I feel about running. It’s not because I’m 200 lbs overweight that I don’t like it, I just hate it.So the original agreement was that I was only playing one game. My mouth was dry, I thought I was going to vomit and I was shaking…and I hadn’t even played yet.
Now I know what you’re thinking, why would someone who loves sports so much be so nervous to play. People’s perceptions….that’s why. Nothing but plain fear on what evil things people were thinking seeing me jiggle (oops I mean run) my way to first.
The good news was that I got through it. I played both games and I didn’t cause a fire with my inner thighs rubbing together as I ran! I even got on first once LOL.
Now I’ll have to go into fall/winter/spring training to get some of this weight off so I can run better next year!
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August 9, 2010
Motivation has got up and gone
7:27 am | 1 Comment » |Ugh. That’s all. It’s the only word that comes to mind when I tell you how I feel. My motivation is on a vacation and I’m really not sure when it is going to come back. I try to sit down and plan it’s return but I’m not even motivated to do that.
We had a serious health scare in our family last weekend where someone my age had a heart attack. You think that alone would scare me into getting back on track but no. I get so frustrated with myself because I know I’m a walking time bomb. I’ve said before that I know I am defying odds but keeping good health and that I should take advantage of it because what if when my health starts declining, I don’t get a second chance to right the wrong or that too much damage has been done?? When I think about these things I just tell myself I’ll start “Tomorrow”.
I have so many things that should motivate me to move and eat better but I am lazy. I can make up a plan but don’t want to put forth the effort to execute it.
What is it about food anyway? Why does food have to be the base of everything?? Someone will say they are having a party and the first question from everyone is “What do you want me to bring”. Should gatherings not be about hanging out with good friends, meeting new ones, and having a good time?? Of course it should but somehow we find it easier to socialize over food. When I know we are going to Bridgewater I find myself thinking about what I’d like to bring back to eat. Pointless!! Makes me angry when I think about it but that too shall pass.
Anyway as you can tell I’m not happy with myself at the moment so I’m not going to spend my time writing or waste your time reading when I’m not in a good mood but I wanted to blog so I could get the crankiness out of the way.
Hopefully one of these days my tomorrow will become today and I’ll get started again.
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July 23, 2010
:-) :-) :-)
3:42 am | 3 Comments » |Oh yeah baby!!!!! The studio is open again and I’m loving it!!! For some silly reason I was worried that when it opened I would lost my “umph” and not want to go back to working out like I had been pre-pregnancy. Nope not the case at all, I got one taste and now I’m craving for more!
This week I did Turbo on Tuesday and then thought that would be it for the week because my oldest had soccer on Thursday and we are going away for the weekend. Well as I sat and felt bad for myself about my weight gain, I thought “Okay Shawna, you can sit here and feel bad for yourself and come up with all the reasons that you are big OR you could suck it up, do your thing, and feel good because you are back to exercising”..so I did just that!!! After the soccer game, I had enough time to run to Bridgewater for the baby formula and go to the studio for Zumba. It was so much fun and my abs got a crazy workout!
My fav class has been and always will be turbo; however, reality is that I will not always be able to make it and as long as I am moving and having fun while I’m doing it, that is all that matters!!
After zumba, I jumped on the scale (first time on those scales in over a year). I can’t say I loved the number. I’m up almost 10 lbs since having the baby. So that was a starting point…and that was with no exercise so now that I’m back at the gym, I’m confident I can get that off.
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July 20, 2010
The HEAT is on!!!!
8:14 am | No Comments » |I am SUPER pumped…beyond excited! HEAT opens today at its’ new location at the HB Studios Fieldhouse. I will be there will bells on tonight for turbo and can’t wait to fall in love with the place all over again! I found myself yesterday bringing the new schedule up every fifteen minutes just studying it and coming up with my plan on what classes I thought I could get to!
Summertime is a hard time for me only because it is so busy and with adding soccer to the mix, makes it ten times worse; however, the schedule stretches over a 12 hr period so I know I can get in the workouts I want each week.
The opening couldn’t have come at a better time….with daily reminders from my little one about the increasing size of my middle roll and the fact that I feel like a giant marshmallow, it’s time to sweat and get this party started!
Still going strong with the pop. Hot days like we have been having are hard and it would be easy to go to the store and buy a nice cold bottle but I haven’t. I did have some gingerale with Rye over the weekend but aside from mix with Rye, I do not like gingerale so the next day continued on as if nothing had changed. I’m still not getting as much water as I should be but that will change going back to the gym because I usually drink 2-4 glasses there alone.
My other challenge is meals during the summer. Number one, I don’t want to cook in the heat but also I don’t feel like eating so I normally find myself skipping lunch. You would think that would be a good thing but I make up for it in the evening trust me!! No more!
I’m sure I’ll blog tomorrow if I’m able to type!!!
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July 8, 2010
Bring on the HEAT!
10:35 am | No Comments » |I love summer, I’m not a huge fan of humidity but will take it any day over the winter. The HEAT I want brought on is my gym. It is so close to being ready I can taste the salty sweat from all the great workouts I am going to get. Trust me, I am going to get them. The baby is 3.5 months now and can be entertained in between feedings so I am going to try my luck with some day time classes and take him with me. My two older girls love to go to the babysitting room so they are no problem to convince to go! During the summer, my oldest has soccer games every Thursday night so I won’t get to Turbo then but will go to Turbo on Tuesdays and squeeze in another night time class and Saturday mornings. My goal is four to five workouts a week. I need to fit it into my routine so no better time to do it then now…well not right now, but when it opens!
My youngest girl asked me the other day if I was having another baby. I asked her why she would say that and she pointed it to my stomach and said because it is growing again. All I could do was laugh. Sydney keeps it honest 100% of the time!
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June 25, 2010
If Only Willpower had a button
5:18 pm | No Comments » |Wow I’ve been in a bad mood this past week. Call it the hot weather that makes the skinniest of people feel like a blown up bullfrog in or the fact that I can’t seem to get myself up and going but either way I’m spiralling.
My willpower seems to have been turned off and the button is lost to turn it back on. I can start the day with the perfect plan to eat perfectly and by lunch time, I’m starting to play bargaining games in my mind. Things like, oh well you had such a great morning with no snacks, of course you can have icecream in the afternoon. I hate that, yet as much as I hate it, I continue to do it.
I won’t sit here and make excuses. Two things that are causing me not to lose weight and most recently starting to gain it back is that I’m not eating right and I’m not exercising at all. Yes my kids extra-curriculars have me here there and everywhere three of the five weekdays and most weekends but the Old Shawna would have squeezed in workouts wherever she could.
My beloved HEAT is reopening in July and I’m using that opportunity to have my slogan as “New HEAT, new Shawna, new opportunities”. I know what your thinking, isn’t this the same woman who started Operation Scaledown just two weeks ago. Yes I am, it didn’t work, and now I”m thinking of something else. Deal with it.
What I am proud to say is that I still have not had any pop or chips. It’s hard because my mind tells me I should just drink the pop until the gym reopens but I know if I do that I will get hooked again and I don’t want to go through that again. So no pop. The only chips I buy are for my husband’s lunch and it doesn’t bother me at all. School is out so no lunch snacks which will help A LOT. The plan with my kids is still in effect. Call it conicidence but they’ve slept wonderfully for the last two weeks….coincidence? I think not!!
Anyway, if you find the button to turn my willpower back on, please push it. I need all the support I can get and appreciate what I have but in the end it is me that has to make the commitment and do it. I know that, I just need to do it.
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June 15, 2010
The Lil’ Peeps Plan
1:52 pm | 2 Comments » |I mentioned in my earlier post that I had implemented a plan with my children and that I would write about it later. Well it’s later so I will you about it.
Meet my children…..
The one in the striped shirt is my oldest daughter, Meaghan. The one in the purple dress is Sydney and of course the little baby is Owen. And of course, that’s me in the middle. I really didn’t want to put a picture of myself on here but it was the only pic I had where my children’s eyes weren’t red proving that their father is the devil!
The age difference between Meaghan and Sydney is 3.5 years, the lb difference is only 5. Meaghan has inherited her father’s genes and Sydney, sadly mine. The good news is that she will have no problem making the basketball team, the bad news is that if she doesn’t develop healthy habits to take her into her adulthood, she is going to struggle with her weight just like me. So what do I do about? Well I’ve implemented a little peeps plan. I would love to tell you that this idea came to me out of concern of the health of my children but it didn’t. It came to me at between 3:30am-6am in the morning a few weeks ago. Why so early you ask?? Well I awoke at 3:30am to the sound of screaming children….and it wasn’t my 2.5 month old. My two girls were fighting at 3:30am. I was LIVID. As I stormed down the hall I thought, Lord if ever a time you were going to bless me with patience, this would be the time. They were fighting over the light being on so by the time I got them settled down, all the commotion woke up the baby. So as I sat there with a wide awake baby, I thought about their punishment. Once I got the punishment out of the way, I then started thinking about why my kids wake through the middle of the night. The only thing that I could come up with was lack of schedule in the evening and sugar. So here is the plan:
Only one snack between breakfast and lunch and it has to be fruits or veggies. Only one popsicle or freezie per day and it can only be eaten between lunch and supper. One snack out of the snack cupboard as a treat but must be eaten between lunch and supper. Nothing but milk or water after supper and nothing but fruits or veggies after supper. TV time got trimmed down too. Only 1 hr in between meals. So 1 hr in the morning, 1 hr in the afternoon, and 1 hr in the evening. This rule doesn’t fizz Meaghan at all. She would rather do a puzzle or read a book. Sydney is acting as if I have taken the only means to her existence from her. She struggles with it everyday and constantly has to be reminded why she can’t watch tv when she asks.
Now you may wonder how popsicles made it into a rule. Well Sydney is obsessed over them……I’m quite certain the child would eat them continuosly if someone wasn’t there to tell her no.
So this is week three following the plan and they are adapting well. Surprisingly, Sydney who consumed the most snacks throughout the day doesn’t seem to miss it. She has always liked fruits and veggies so as long as they are ready for her to snack on, she will eat them. Meaghan struggles when she gets home from school but only because she doesn’t take the time to eat all her lunch because it interferes with her play time (her words, not mine).
It’s not easy making sure cut up veggies and washed fruit are ready for them when they get hungry but it is so worth watching them eat healthy food as opposed to junk. Knock on wood, since this has been implemented I haven’t had to break up a fight in the wee hours of the morning!
I’m still doing well with the pop and chips. Monday was four weeks with no pop and I don’t even think about salt and vinegar chips. I am hoping to try out the bootcamp soon. My life is so busy with soccer that I dont have many free nights to get there.
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June 7, 2010
1+1=3
10:50 am | 1 Comment » |I’m good at math, I’d go as far to say that I’m pretty good at math but I’m sure you don’t believe me if you read my blog. Either that or you think I’m on drugs. I was reading through my blogs wondering if I had offended anyone since no one has been commenting when I saw that on May 26th I was 10 days with no pop which is accurate. Then 3 short days later I somehow gained a few days and I was on day 15 (when it should have been 13) and then four days later I did an amazing jump to 3 and a half weeks (when it should have only been day 17)…not sure what happened, must have been the lack of caffeine affecting my brain 
So today has been three weeks completed and I am on day 22 (no worries, I double checked my math). Day 13 with no chips….the same opened bag that was there when I started is still there. It’s been a hard struggle but I’m making it.
I’ve been cutting up cucumber and carrots to have in the fridge so that if I really want to eat something I can grab those. The snack cupboard is very tempting but thankfully after school is out I won’t need to have as many snacky things in the house.
Sometime this week I’ll blog about the new food rules I have in place for the kids in an effort to minimize the amount of sugar they are ingesting during the day. It seems to be working, now if only I could follow that!
I’d appreciate if you could give me some snack ideas that are filling yet not junky. Ideas?
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June 2, 2010
Pop, Chips, and Operation Scaledown
11:07 am | No Comments » |So I woke up this morning with Operation Scaledown on my mind. I haven’t really done much by the way of effort towards the operation but I did stick to the two things I said I was going to do. That of course was to give up pop and chips. Pop has not been an issue surprisingly. I would say the biggest issue with the pop has been drinking enough of other stuff throughout the day. The only thing I’ve been drinking is water and then milk at supper time but most days I don’t get in eight glasses of water so considering I’m not drinking anything else, I have to make sure the water gets in so I keep hydrated.
Giving up the chips has been a struggle. Every part of my body and willpower wants to dive into the cupboard and eat the last remaining salt and vinegar chips that are there but somehow I have managed to ward it off for 8 days. My last post I couldn’t remember how many days it was without chips and Taff kindly reminded me. When I read that at the time I blogged it was four days I nearly had a meltdown. Four days???? It felt like it had been a lifetime. I don’t know what is wrong with me…I don’t even eat a lot of chips but the thought of that salt and vinegar….god I’m drooling just writing about it. This morning was the first morning I didn’t wake up thinking about them. Then I remembered I didn’t wake up thinking about them and have been thinking of them ever since!
I have to get Kenny to either eat them when I’m not around or throw them out. I won’t even throw them out in fear that the smell will release the inner chip monster that is hiding within me.
Okay back to the scaledown. I stepped on the scale and was down 0.5 lbs. Now any other time such a small loss would really piss me off but considering I haven’t done anything and with HEAT not open, have not been working out, I’m quite pleased that the scale went down. Now if I could get the water into me, I’m sure the number would be a bit bigger.
So that is my next commitment, drink all my water each day! If that means drinking most of it before I got to bed and I have to get up all through the night to use the washroom, then that will be my punishment for not drinking it throughout the day. It’s 11:15am and I’m on my fourth glass for today so feeling good that I’ll get it in today.
I want the scale to go down but my main goal is to not gain weight while I wait for HEAT to reopen. Once it is open, I’m going more than what I have been. I’m hoping the baby will have a bit of a schedule established and if not, he’ll have to get used to mine!
3 and a half weeks with no pop, go me!
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May 29, 2010
Shallow Shawna
11:27 am | 2 Comments » |Every see the movie Shallow Hal? If you have you’ll understand this comparison and if you haven’t, find a friend who has watch it and they’ll explain it to you. I would but can’t explain things quickly, it takes me forever. See? It just took me a paragraph to explain to you that I wasn’t going to explain it to you!
Let me state that I do not judge people on their weight. I’d be a hypocrite if I did. Have I hated people who could eat whatever they wanted and not gain a pound? Yes…I’m married to one of those people! Have I ever looked at someone who lost who they were after they lost a bunch of weight and wished they’d gain half of it back? Yes but then karma made me gain 5 lbs so I think we’re even!
When I compare myself to Shallow Hal, I compare simply by saying that inside I do not feel like overweight. I look down and see the fat rolls, I look at pictures and think oh my god am I really that big but when I’m out and about, I do not feel big. Some people would say that it is a good thing that I am confident and feel good about myself and I do not disagree; however, I think it is a double edged sword. On the plus side I don’t spend much time beating myself up about my weight (I do it, just not a lot) but on the negative side, I think the fact that I don’t feel big nor do I care what others think, prevents me from being aware of what I am putting in my mouth and the impact it will have on my waistline.
Now when I say I don’t care what others think, I guess that’s not entirely true. It bothers me when people judge me, take a minute to get to know me and I’m pretty sure you’d like me. But if all you’re going to do is judge me by my size, then I’m pretty sure you are the one who misses out. So if I’ve caught someone looking at me disgustedly or someone has made a comment about me being big, it upsets me but then I shake it off and take the stand that I really don’t care what they think. Let me reword that, my form of shaking it off is putting junk in my mouth and saying “Screw em”. Gee, guess it does affect me more than what I think!
One thing I can proudly say is that even though I don’t feel big, I don’t dress as if I’m not. That is one of my biggest pet peeves. If someone has the confidence to wear stuff that they don’t fit in or doesn’t look good, good for them but what they obviously don’t have are good friends to say “Girl get that sh&t off”.
I’m Day 15, no pop and can’t remember which day I pledged no chips but haven’t had any of those either.
Have a great weekend, it’s going to be a beauty!!!
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