Just a little over 7 weeks to go
2:08 pm | 1 Comment »I’ve been itching to get back to the gym. I can’t wait! I love logging into facebook every night and see people raving about their awesome workout at HEAT and know that shortly I will be rejoining those workouts. It seems strange to sit and type about being excited to exercise but it’s true. I love that place!
Pregnancy is going along with just a little over 7 weeks to go. I have been maintaining my weight and still have only gained 1 lb which I’m pretty stoked about. Now as long as these last 7 weeks I don’t go out of control, I should make out okay.
I’ve been eating lots of fruits and veggies because meat still repulses me.
Anyway, just a quick blog to let you know I”m still here, still making it and will be back to blogging full time very shortly.
Take Care!
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November 19, 2009
I’m still here
10:22 am | 2 Comments »I know, I know….I suck. I’ll be honest and tell you that there are plenty of things that I can blog about because my life is filled with adventure but they are not related to weight loss.
I can’t come on here and tell you about all the wonderful healthy meals I’ve been eating because the thought of protein sends me diving towards the toilet and let’s face it, salad isn’t going to fill this big girl. I’ve been eating more carbs than anything (pastas, casseroles, etc) because it’s the only thing that I can sit down and eat without gagging in front of the family and let’s face it, no one wants a gagger sitting around the table while you’re trying to eat.
Exercise wise has slacked off A LOT. My original plan was to go to the gym three times a week, Tuesday and Thursday for turbo and then Saturday morning for weights. I don’t go Saturday mornings because by the time I drag myself out of bed and get the kids ready to go, it leaves me no time to inhale my breakfast, which then reintroduces itself to the world about 15 minutes into the workout. So I made a decision that instead of going on Saturdays and running out of the gym green as the grinch and heading to the toilet, I would just get some much needed rest. So that leaves Tuesdays and Thursdays. I work every second Thursday until 8pm so I don’t go then and it seems that over the last two weeks, there has been a reason why I can’t go. Most of the time it’s because I’m tired, haven’t slept the night before, etc and although I feel like I should suck it up and go anyway, I just do not have the energy.
Weight wise though, I am actually not doing all that bad. I went for my check up yesterday and was down 2 lbs so that means in total I have gained 5 lbs since I have been pregnant. I will be 22 weeks on Sunday so 5 lbs in 22 weeks given the fact that I haven’t followed any form of diet whatsoever is not bad at all!
I hope this blog finds you well and that you are more prepared for the upcoming Holidays than I am!
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October 20, 2009
Through the eyes of a child
7:11 am | 1 Comment »If you’ve ever listened to the perception of adult’s by a child, you will agree with me that most of the time, their thought pattern on what they perceive we do, act, look like, etc can be downright hilarious. One thing you can guarantee on their perception is that it is 100% honest 100% of the time.
For example, prior to transferring to Bridgewater, I worked in the city. One day when I had the kids to the city for an appointment, I took them to where I worked to introduce them to my co-workers. I showed them where I worked, how I got there, where my office was, etc. As we were in the car heading back home, my oldest Meaghan (who would have been six at the time) started asking me what it was that I did. Most employees perceptions of Managers is that they don’t do anything and by golly, do you think I could explain my job to a six year old? So I said that if people need help, they come to me and I help them, show them what to do, if they need a day off them come to me, etc. Meaghan interrupts me and says, you are a boss??? I said well yes honey, that is what I do….well you would have thought it was just announced that her mother was the Queen of England, this huge smile came across her face and for a week straight, no matter who she saw she told them that her mother was a boss a top a tall building in Halifax.
Just this past Easter, I…oh excuse me, I mean the Easter Bunny brought my children each a few outfits to go with their mounds of candy. Nice spring and summer outfits because of course, great weather was just around the corner. My youngest, who was three, got a Capri and tank top set. When she found the secret spot the easter bunny had hidden her outfit she started jumping up and down and said “look mommy, the easter bunny brought me a exercise shirt just like you”. See because I take the girls to the gym with me and I’m usually always wearing a tank top, Sydney could not associate it with anything other than the gym.
Which brings me to my conversation with Meaghan (who is now almost eight) last night on the way home from Brownies. Now I’m not going to write everything that she said but you’ll get the gist. The radio was on and there was a song that has a line about a solider in a civil war. She said oh that reminds me of someone in the city that was in the war. I chuckled and said who? She said, oh you know the one who doesn’t like my friends who look different from me. Completely baffled at this point, I said, Meaghan what are you talking about. When she started explaining the story, I realized that she was talking about someone who was racist. Now the only way she would have known this is because she overheard me talking to someone because she has never met this person so wouldn’t know who he was from a hole in the ground. I tried to explain how this person was just a disgruntled person but she wasn’t getting it. So I said, well he doesn’t even like people who are fat (which is true)…Meaghan said, “Really?? He doesn’t like you….but everyone should like you” Complete silence….now don’t get me wrong, I know I’m big but I hate to hear it and of course, through the eyes of the child I can picture I look like the marshmallow man on Ghostbusters.
So if you ever want a honest reality check, ask a child!!!!
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September 24, 2009
What time is it?????
5:23 am | No Comments »It is that time….Biggest Loser time……let me tell you (if I haven’t already) that I L-O-V-E that show. From start to finish I am a bawling idiot committing to a week of good eating, regular exercise, and…..well, that commitment seems to turn off just as quick as the television does when the show is over. During those two hours though….I’m completely committed.
Yeah, yeah I know…they work out an insane amount of hours, it isn’t realistic weight loss, etc but they truly are inspirations and I like it!
I love watching the transformation week over week and LOVE the tips that the trainers give right before a commercial. I remember last season, they would say something a tip and I’d say “Hey Mary Ann just told me that last week!” so knew I was on the right track.
Two years ago, I’d get ready for the show by popping popcorn, dishing out icecream or pouring pop….I know it’s pathetic but hey what am I gonna do? It’s different now and has been for the last few seasons, I use it as my two hours to reset, refocus and renew my commitment.
If you don’t watch Biggest Loser, you need to start because I’ll talk about it every week and of course you don’t want to stop reading my blog so you’ll have to watch it to keep up on what I’m talking about.
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September 9, 2009
I’m Guilty!
5:42 am | 4 Comments »Okay…I know, I’m guilty. The last blog I wrote was that I would never go that long without blogging again. I guess technically I didn’t lie because I actually went longer but still feel bad because I know that there are people checking daily to see if I have blogged.
A lot has changed in my world since the last time I blogged and all these changes are in part why I haven’t blogged. See…..well……I’ll just put it out there…..I’m pregnant, three months to be exact.
So I guess the next question is, where do I go from here. Well, with my first two pregnancies, I actually lost weight with both of them and it looks like this one will be the same. I’m ill and the thought of most food sends me running to the bathroom so although a hard way to lose it, so far I’m holding my own. I’m still going to the gym just not as frequently. I still do Turbo Kick on Tuesdays and Thursdays and will be doing Saturday morning strength classes once the summer activities wind down and I stop having so much planned on my weekends. Working out isn’t bad, I have to keep it low impact because I get so nauseous with all the leg lifting, etc. By the end of it, I can’t do a knee left because I’m sure the poor person in front of me didn’t go to the gym planning to be full of vomit so I just march in place or punch. I look out of place but at least I’m moving.
I’ve already committed in my mind that I will not give up the gym. I don’t care if I waddle in there eight months pregnant and sit and watch everyone work out, I refuse to give up the habit of going to the gym. It took me this long to find a place where I fit in and love going, it would take the doctors telling me not to work out to stop. For now, my doctor thinks it’s great that I’m going so we’ll go with that!
So there you have it, rightly or wrongly that is my reason that I haven’t blogged. I felt if I blogged without telling you, that I was lying and lying is one trait I am proud to say that I am not good at.
So I’m sure my blog will be a bit different but in the end my goals are still the same, we’re just on a nine month delay 
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August 17, 2009
Summer, Summer, Summertime
6:02 am | 1 Comment »I’ve actually forgotten how much of a love/hate relationship I have with summer. I love it because there is no snow, weekends are packed full of fun friend/family activities, and most everyone is in a cheerful mood because it’s summer. I hate summer though because there are SO MANY temptations, temptations to which I haven’t been trying hard to fight.
I guess going into the summer I had a multitude of goals. On one hand, my main goal was to maintain yet in the back of my head I thought I should at least try to lose something, after all I am still over 150 lbs overweight. Well let me tell you I don’t think I’ve done either. I haven’t stepped on the scale in a few weeks but the last time I did, it wasn’t pretty. Now I’m not your typical person, I’m not going to make excuses about why the weight isn’t coming off. I’m not drinking my water, I’m eating out more, I’ve been drinking pop, and with the kids in all kinds of summer activities, I’ve only been getting to the gym 2-3 times per week. Oh and let’s add the stopping for ice cream after every activity and that should give you enough reasons why the scale isn’t staying where it should!
It’s hard too because when you get out of the routine of healthy eating and exercising, it’s hard to find that motivation to get going again. Every week you tell yourself you’ll “start on Monday”…I can sense you nodding your head because I think everyone of us do it!
So I’m not sure when my “Monday” will be but I’ll get there. I’m sure it will take one step on the scale to snap me back to reality. To everyone who has maintained or lost this summer, congrats to you!
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July 27, 2009
Here I am
9:28 am | 5 Comments »I’m still here!!! Trust me, going this long without blogging won’t happen again. A whole string of reasons why I haven’t been blogging from computer troubles to laziness to lack of thoughts in this small mind of mine.
The last couple of days it has been nagging at me that I haven’t been blogging but each time I thought to blog, I was wrapped up doing something else. So what better time to blog than in the middle of cleaning my daughter’s room? I’m a great procrastinator and there is nothing that I dislike more than housework so as I was going through the million things that have accumulated on her floor since the last cleaning, I thought now is the perfect time to sit and write.
It’s funny; when I originally started blogging I really didn’t have an idea on how many people would read it or if I would have an impact on people. The blog if anything has put more pressure on me (and if you remember, I don’t react well to pressure) because I feel like I have to eat perfectly and lose every week in order to inspire people. Over the past few weeks, I have come to realize that this is not the case.
For example, I was grocery shopping about a month ago when one of the cashiers (I won’t use their name because I’m not sure they would be comfortable with it but they know who they are!) recognized my name from my air miles card and told me how they loved reading my blog. As we talked, I realized it had nothing to do with whether I was successful or not, it was about the truth and honesty in my thoughts that made them realize that we are all the same.
I have to say; I was surprised to learn that two of my blog fans were males! Not surprised that males would read it but that they would admit it J I’m sure it had something to do with the bra story that got them hooked (Kidding!!) but again made me realize that men and women are alike when it comes to weight loss. Now ladies, I know what you’re thinking, they can lose it so much faster but I can tell you that just because they can lose it faster doesn’t mean that they don’t struggle with the temptations just like we do.
Just today when I turned on my computer to start blogging I had two new messages on my facebook. One sent at 11:43am and the other at 11:45am by two different people recognizing that I hadn’t posted a blog in a while. Call it a sign or a coincidence but it reminded me that people aren’t looking to read about my perfection, they are looking for that one place they can go whether they are having a good day or a bad day and realize that they truly are not alone and that whether we’re big, small, male, or female in the end we’re all human and we’re not perfect.
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July 10, 2009
Friday Night
7:13 pm | 2 Comments »Original title I know, it was the best I could come up with.
So how many of you have ever been trying to eat healthy and look at those that are eating everything you would love to be munching on and think that they have life by the balls?
I’m at that phase…it’s been fourteen days of eating on track and now I’m becoming disgruntled. Mind you, in a social setting whether I’m being good and eating from a veggie tray or being bad and diving into a Mexican dip platter, I still have fun….so why do I feel all those extra calories are so necessary? If I had the answer, I guess I would be cured from this obesity but alas I do not have the answers.
So yes, I’m disgruntled and heading into the weekend…not a good combination. I am the type that I want the weight off and I want it off now…..if I have a good week eating wise, I want to be rewarded for it on the scale and this is the dreaded week two weigh in so of course I know I’m not going to have a big number and it scares me as to what my reaction afterwards will be. In my mind I keep telling myself, give it another week regardless of the result and you’ll be fine but my gut is telling me I am going to be very angry and not feel that the number that is presented is even worth the effort I put in. A lb is a lb right? That motto only works for me when I see a number I like.
So I’m sitting here and have just finished my last glass of water for the evening…my feet are swelled (no I’m not pregnant) and I’m in a pissy mood….what a way to start the weekend.
Oh well, I’ll get up tomorrow and do my workout at HEAT and feel better, that is always a guarantee. I just have to remember that nothing changes if nothing changes.
I hope everyone has a great weekend
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July 7, 2009
The Results
7:06 pm | 6 Comments »I jumped on the scale last night like I blogged I was going to and was down 8.8 lbs. I was pumped. I knew it was a big number because as I had mentioned, I jumped on the scale Saturday and was down 10.8 lbs but that was from a night weigh in to the day and I fluctuate quite a bit between day time and night time so knew the number wasn’t that high but I’ll definitely go with 8.8 lbs in a week, I can handle that!
When you’re on a roll it really is hard not to set goals but I haven’t been. I just know what I’m like when I set goals and I’m not doing it. I literally am taking each day at a time and at the end of the day when I have stayed on track, I feel accomplished and much better about myself.
I shared yesterday that one of the my key successes has been anticipating upcoming events but another thing that is key no matter what plan you are following is preparation. That doesn’t mean just buying the stuff and putting it in the fridge, it means planning what you are going to do with it. That is what I have done for the last 11 days and it seems to be working.
I feel more satisfied as parent too because I’m watching my kids eat better. My girls have always enjoyed fruit and vegetables but what’s better than an Oreo cookie or a Bear Paw in the eyes of a 4 year old or a 7 year old. When my youngest asks for a bear paw, I suggest whatever fruit we have going in the fridge and she eats it. My oldest is a fussy eater; if I let her eat hotdogs for all three meals and snacks she would so I have started to involve her in picking out what she would love to have for supper. The other night they each made their own home made mini pizza. I baked 2 small whole-wheat pitas until a little crispy and then they added sauce, meat, red and green pepper, and cheese. They loved making them and enjoyed eating them. I think Kenny was a bit jealous that they didn’t make any for him! The only rule that my oldest is struggling with is the “only water or milk at supper time”. She doesn’t like either so she tries to con me into allowing her juice but hey she made up the rule, she has to follow it!
Have a good evening, enjoy the read, and feel free to drop me any suggestions you have for meal ideas, your tricks for staying on track, etc.
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July 6, 2009
Yee Haw…another weekend conquered
10:23 am | No Comments »Let’s face it, the hardest part of staying on track is the weekends. There are more events going on, more socializing, no appointments to keep us busy for an hour so that we aren’t thinking of food. To sum it up, the weekends can be pure evil.
I find what works for me, is thinking ahead. I try to anticipate the different things I will be doing and what food obstacles I will have to overcome. I knew this weekend would be relatively relaxed because my husband was playing in a ball tournament and it was just the kids and I. The kids and I followed our normal Saturday ritual and with Wendy in tow, headed to the gym. We came home and had lunch and played for a bit and then I could feel it, I was getting bored…and what does Shawna do when she is bored…she heads to the cupboard. So instead of heading to the cupboard, the girls and I went outside instead but the flies were enough to drive you crazy so back in the house we went. Sweet, it’s snack time so I had some strawberries and “thought” about doing the housework but what would be better than relaxing on the recliner while the girls played barbies and fought with one another…after all I just did a double workout, I needed to relax! After my relaxation time, it was time to make supper. Once I make it to supper time I know I will be okay because supper usually will last with me until about 4 hours or so and if I get hungry after that I just go to bed but with the increase in protein, I haven’t been finding that I am all that hungry.
The only thing that I had all weekend that wasn’t on my plan was ½ cup of mashed potatoes and 2 small freezies. If that makes me gain weight then I really am in trouble! Funniest part was that the first thing my husband does when he sees Mary Ann is tell her I had mashed potatoes….what a bastard! Not that I wouldn’t have told her but he ratted me out before I could position it in a way that I wasn’t veering out of control towards my normal chocolate bar, chips, and pop frenzy.
That’s ok I’ve learned my lesson, next time we sit to a meal and I have something on my plate that shouldn’t be there, I’m not telling him because that is the only way he knew. I also told him that the next time I made mashed potatoes he wouldn’t be getting any….come on I’m a woman I can’t just let it go!
I’ll be weighing tonight so will be able to give you my official number since last week. I weighed Saturday morning so I have a good idea of the number but will wait for the official number tonight to share with you. I know, the suspense!
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