Back to Work Blues
I can’t seem to get out of my own way this week. At first I thought maybe I was getting sick or that my age was catching up to me but I will finally admit what the problem is. My maternity leave is up in two weeks and then I go back to work. I can’t wait to get back to my co-workers and get back into the swing of a routine but boy I can’t picture how I am going to leave this brown eyed devil. The mere thought of it sends crocodile tears down my cheeks. My husband is a tough love kind of guy so as I’m wearing my heart out on my sleeve crying about how much I’m going to miss the little guy and being home when the girls get home from school, he gives me a quick look from the hockey game and says “you’ll adapt”. Thanks hun, love your support I will adapt but until then just call me Emotional Edna….
I did sign up for the loser. I was pretty non-committal about signing up until the last week when I decided to give it ago. I was not happy with my effort in the last loser and didn’t give it my all or support others like I normally do. This week has been great. I’m making slow changes in my eating habits and have been to the gym three times so far. I will get one more workout in tomorrow before weigh in. I can’t do anymore than 3-5 times a week at the gym. I’m involved in too much stuff that limits the days I can get there and I know once I go back to work, I’m going to feel guilty for getting home and then turning around and leaving again to go to the gym.
I don’t really notice a huge difference like I normally do but I did keep drinking my water between the challenge and this competition and I find getting your water in is what makes the big result on week 1. I have set a goal of 40 lbs so that is just over 3 lbs per week which for me is achievable. I have never lost more than 24 lbs in a loser competition so if I meet my goal it will be a big deal. I always finish the losers but the the last eight weeks are tough for me. I think I have blogged before that I am a 4 week type of person. I will give it my all and then get bored or in this case, if I don’t see the result I think I deserve, I punish myself by eating. Make sense? No not to me either but I continue to do it. In these competitions, I am focused and on plan for the first four-five weeks and then I will have a few off weeks and then get back on track and then fall of again.
Although we didn’t make three commitments I thought I would make three commitments here. I really enjoyed making those commitments and felt accomplished when I saw them through til the end. They are:
1. Blog at least once per week with weigh in results
2. Faithfully update my food journal and pass it in for review weekly
3. Do 50 crunches per day at home
There I’ve committed it here and now you can hold me accountable.
First weigh in is tomorrow, wish me luck!!