Have you ever looked in the faces of hundreds of people and seen nothing but good?

I have and I have been blessed. I’ll fight all the cancer in the world if it means I get to experience that again!

SK

Man, this stuff wears you down. I think I have had the worst week in a long time. Nothing feels right. Everything hurts and while I am keeping my hair, it now seems as though I my lose my finger and toe nails. Who knew? I have been cold constantly. Chemo turns you into a lizard. Forget regulating your body temperature. You are freezing when its cool and just comfortable when eveyone else is in shorts and tee shirts and complaining about the heat. You are cold blooded, waiting for a sunny day so you can find a rock to warm up on and get moving again.

I have also come to the conclusion that I hate pills. Twelve years is enough. Now I am into maybe fifteen on some mornings and sixteen to seventeen some nights. Subconsciously, I hope, my throat constricts when I take them. Makes it interesting.

Research has shown that pregnant women will have their bodies reject certain foods, odours and such. The reason is their body is smart and recognizing and avoiding things that may be harmful to the unborn fetus. Cool. I think my body may be doing the same thing. It is trying to tell me to stop taking this poison. Too bad poison is the only treatment we have. It is always interesing to see the nurses administer chemo into the vein of a patient, while they are taking every precaution that it doesn’t get on them or spill. A doctor once told me that in a few decades the medical community will look back at current chemo therapy and consider it barbaric. Lucky me. Sorry us.

Oh well, ya gotta do what ya gotta do. The crazy part is people who see me say I look better. Really. Well you can’t judge a book by its cover. Maybe I was on a real bender and this is the worst hangover in history.”A lesser man wouldn’t have survived it!” Well said Mark.

SK